What I Saw

I was drifting today, the way I drift. Soft, fluid, awake but spacey. I have fears, and they move in from time to time, and I have ongoing fear of death. I have an infected leg right now, and my fear wafted me to the emergency room, and the infection had moved to my brain, and I went into code and I moved towards the light, and I saw Jesus.

And He wasn't mad at me. I was a different person when I started this blog. The discoveries I have made as I waded through theology, the church, doctrine and future things have been real and they have transformed me into someone I could never have imagined being: Supporting homosexual marriage and accepting that sexual orientation; bringing cultural context into the evaluation and interpretation of the book; seeing that there is a loving Jesus outside of being a rigid evangelical, and understanding that His call is all encompassing, and involves every part of my life.

These changes have bothered and scared me. and although the musing vision I had today was far from being an epiphany, it was important in its assurance that I could keep on speaking. In fact, the impression I got in fact was that God was telling me to instruct others, and get ready, it will be instruction and the bathroom sink from here on in.